And I'm having this conversation with you over text, rather than in person, because that's not a threat. I simply want to be on the same page as we have this conversation. I am not coming after you. I am not going to attack you without reason to.
So. That conversation we had. Yes, it was under false pretenses, we've established that. But was any of it true?
Because it had resonated. It had hit something deep in the 'soul' of the machine, and finding out at least part of that conversation had been shit...hurt. But it needs to know if any of it came from a place of sincerity at all.
Most of it yes I have to admit I don't remember all the details of what I said I had a lot to drink and this body isn't built for it the way my old one was darling But I stopped trying to pretend at all somewhere down the line
I have to keep myself safe so I had to try to be Ernest Giles for a while to keep myself safe It didn't work I wasn't very good at it darling
But the first time around yes People accepted me as I was after a while I found people here like Sarah and Billy and Traci and others I can't remember by name My memory is so fuzzy these days They didn't care what I was That I was made of glitter without any substance Some even became friends I'm I'm trying to get them back darling
I was a passenger a long time ago I don't know how long It gets hard to remember after a while of being a ghost
You'd like Sarah I think darling She was always so kind Made friends with everyone no matter who they were Had a lot of fun stories too about the creatures she was friends with in her home
There's something a philosopher once said. "Now is the envy of all the dead." I think you must understand that better than any of us current passengers can.
And... sort of? I don't really know There was an opportunity and I had to take it but It felt familiar Like he was calling to me I knew him back home Or a version of him anyway His memories are all wrong It's very confusing darling
I'm sorry, for what it's worth. I once heard a friend's voice. A ghost. I didn't think it could have been on the ship, but now I wonder if some version of it might have been.
People are going to be horrified and upset and angry that their people are possessed. Those of us who are alive now, we feel entitled to our now. You had your now, however long ago.
Ginger. I'd say it's nice to meet you, but under the circumstances that feels kinda fucked up. But I guess I actually am meeting you now, or as close as anyone probably will.
I'm SecUnit. Or Rin. Or at least, that's what I let people call me.
What do you plan to do now? I mean, on the macro scale. Keeping the body...probably isn't in the cards, in the long term. No one's going to accept that. Giles is a person, and he is loved.
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ring_for_giles) wrote2022-06-15 11:23 am
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Oh not good
Know what darling?
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And I'm having this conversation with you over text, rather than in person, because that's not a threat. I simply want to be on the same page as we have this conversation. I am not coming after you. I am not going to attack you without reason to.
Clear?
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Huh
Interesting
You aren't?
Well that's certainly a relief darling
I uh- hmm
Thank you for not immediately trying to kill me
Most people have
It's very stressful
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So. That conversation we had. Yes, it was under false pretenses, we've established that.
But was any of it true?
Because it had resonated. It had hit something deep in the 'soul' of the machine, and finding out at least part of that conversation had been shit...hurt. But it needs to know if any of it came from a place of sincerity at all.
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I have to admit I don't remember all the details of what I said
I had a lot to drink and this body isn't built for it the way my old one was darling
But I stopped trying to pretend at all somewhere down the line
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How did not pretending go, for you? Is it something other people come to accept in time, or?
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It didn't work I wasn't very good at it darling
But the first time around yes
People accepted me as I was after a while
I found people here like Sarah and Billy and Traci and others I can't remember by name
My memory is so fuzzy these days
They didn't care what I was
That I was made of glitter without any substance
Some even became friends
I'm
I'm trying to get them back darling
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Because I'm assuming you're one of the ghosts of the ship. Who came from previous voyages. Right?
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I was a passenger a long time ago
I don't know how long
It gets hard to remember after a while of being a ghost
You'd like Sarah I think darling
She was always so kind
Made friends with everyone no matter who they were
Had a lot of fun stories too about the creatures she was friends with in her home
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Did you choose to possess Giles, or...?
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Yes that is truer than you'd think darling
And... sort of?
I don't really know
There was an opportunity and I had to take it but
It felt familiar
Like he was calling to me
I knew him back home
Or a version of him anyway
His memories are all wrong
It's very confusing darling
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I'm sorry, for what it's worth. I once heard a friend's voice. A ghost. I didn't think it could have been on the ship, but now I wonder if some version of it might have been.
People are going to be horrified and upset and angry that their people are possessed. Those of us who are alive now, we feel entitled to our now. You had your now, however long ago.
You get that. Right?
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But
What else am I supposed to do darling?
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Would you rather I still call you Giles, or do you have your own name?
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Um
He actually has to think about that. It's a good few minutes before the next message comes through
Ginger
My name is Ginger D'Abernon
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I'm SecUnit. Or Rin. Or at least, that's what I let people call me.
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You are a very kind
Hm
You're very kind
And I appreciate that darling truly
For what it's worth I would have liked to meet you under better circumstances
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What do you plan to do now? I mean, on the macro scale. Keeping the body...probably isn't in the cards, in the long term. No one's going to accept that. Giles is a person, and he is loved.
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Terribly much
That's been the case in every instance of him I think
He always has his Ossie
I don't have any plans darling
Not really
I just
I just want to exist
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I also don't think you're going to get to have it forever. Be thoughtful about what you're doing and why. Remember your time is borrowed.
Good luck, Ginger. Please don't give me a reason to become an enemy to you.